The Journey Home


I don’t even know where to start. This year, so far, has been a bit of a blur. There has been so much change happening inside of me, in my soul, that its a bit hard to comprehend or relay into words. I’ve always failed at describing profound experiences in words, because the feelings are simply…indescribable.

I am being called to show my soul to the world. I am being called to stop hiding. I am being called to share my true soul with the world, so that others can come out of darkness too. Ready…here it goes.

I am clairvoyant. I am a crystal child all grown up. I am an empath (to the 1,000,000,000th degree). I have physic and lucid dreams and premonitions. I am. I am. I am.

There, I said it.

Ive been feeling really crazy lately trying to wrap my mind around sharing this with people so openly. Ive always known that I have sight into the unseen. Ive always known that I see things that others cannot. Ive always known that I have this “knowing” that others do not.

When I was little, I remember FULLY believing that I can communicate with animals. I remember talking to an older lady that wasn’t actually in physical form. A little boy too, just always feeling like others were with me… But as I grew older, I was conditioned to believe that these things were silly and untrue. Over time, through the course of growing up, I pushed these “knowings” deep down in me and ignored it for a long while. I would come back to my soul, this “knowing” from time to time for short periods, but I always get scared away, as if it’s naughty, or bad, or unreal, or against my christian faith.

Its been frustrating, to say the least. Its easier for me to hide this side of myself, than to come to terms with it, show it, live it, etc… Its easier to hide and pretend its not there, than to feel like a crazy person. I don’t know if its the recent full moon, or if there is some other “push” in the universe, but I am being called to share this with the world. I’m being called to STOP hiding. Just be you! “Just be who you are, you’re not crazy, who cares what other people think!”

Painting has led me through a wild transformation. I am a totally different person than I was 4 years ago. Painting was an outlet for me to meditate and pray without even realizing what I was doing. But over time, I began to realize that Im not just praying, Im communicating with spirit intensely. These profound experiences happen while I’m painting commissions (custom paintings) for clients and when I paint for fun! Have you bought a painting from me? Have you noticed the name of your painting? They usually have WAY more meaning than I felt comfortable telling you about. Over time, I’ve begun to believe that my paintings are meant for specific people. If you are meant to connect with me, you will. The message will be there waiting for you.

This is so hard for me to write about and this journal entry is probably all over the place without organization because I feel like I’m not even in control right now or like I’m not even comprehending how this will all play out. I feel as though I asked the universe to make it possible for me to live a full, beautiful life while supporting myself through my art. And now that I’m opening up to my clairvoyant abilities, its as though the two paths that I could have been faced with choosing, are melding into one. Does that make sense? I feel called to share both of these talents with the world, but I want to do it in my own way. And I feel as though this is the answer. I’m already doing it. I just need to open up about it, and be honest because my people are out there - those that will resonate with my art and my soul.

About one week before my dad crossed into the other side, he gave me two books. Guess what they are titled!

“How to talk to your angels” and “Messengers of the Light.” Is your jaw on the floor? Because mine still is. He knew. 100000%. He knew my soul, and I think he had the same gifts.

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Ive read these books front to back at least 3 times. And each year, I pick them up again. They are my MOST cherished material item, a memory that I can hold onto forever. I remember holding my dads hand for nearly 5 hours straight as he was making his journey into the next life. I heard his voice in my mind almost the entire time. He was with the angels, but he didn’t feel ready. He kept saying, not yet, not yet, not yet. And I kept saying (in my mind) its okay, its okay, its okay, we will be okay. The last and final few minutes I heard him asking for Dustin (my brother) to hold his hand with me. Hold my hand, hold my hand. I told Dustin, come and hold dads hand with me. And as soon as he did, our father took his final few breaths, and then he was with God.

yeah I know, that’s intense.

The books, and my father’s journey to heaven are just two confirmations that I am what I am. There have been countless other experiences throughout my life that all point to this single knowing. I ALWAYS know when a woman is pregnant (that is always so much fun! “OMG How did you know, I haven even told anyone yet!” I also know when someone is ill, or when something potentially detrimental will happen (though Im never sure what to do in those situations, yet.) I talk to my Dad every day. Recently, my great-grandmother Mildred visited me for the first time. I pick up on energies in homes and can feel immediately whether something dark had happened there, or if the energy is pure and safe. And I have this sense with people, upon first glance, first impressions, I can sense what you’re thinking and feeling. And it usually reflects in me, negatively. This is something I’m still trying to figure out and hone. This is the main reason why I’ve chosen to stop portrait photography. It gives me CRAZY CRAZY anxiety and panic attacks and I believe its because Im picking up on my client’s nervous energy having to be in front of a camera. Shortly after my dad passed away, I was on a hike and immediately knew that I had to pray for Angels of protection to surround me. I had no idea why this fear had washed over me, but I prayed and chanted intensely for 2 miles. Not even 5 minutes later, I was in a near death car accident. How I walked away with just a scratch, is obvious. I felt something coming and knew I needed to ask God to protect me. I have more stories and experiences, but I’ll save those for a later time when they are most relevant.

So maybe you’re new in the world and don’t have google, but you might be asking what is a clairvoyant? A crystal child, um what? I want to share this information because so many of us (actually all of us, literally) have clairvoyant abilities, usually we just aren’t aware, or know how to access this sense. And maybe I want to feel less crazy so I’m hoping some of you can relate to the following characteristics!! So here are some common signs experienced:

1. You Have Seen Spirits

After the age of three (as far as your brain could possibly remember anything) you might have seen spirits or departed family members. Especially at a young age, little kids and babies are well connected to the spirit world.

For example, maybe after your family dog died, you kept seeing visions of him still running around the house. Or perhaps your grandmother passed, and you still saw her rocking in your rocking chair.

However, these aren’t just any visions. They are real, and you can even talk to them. Sometimes you might look at back at these memories and think you are confusing them with psychic dreams. There is a strong possibility you’re not. The only way to know is by reading further.

2. You Talked to Imaginary Friends as a Kid

It’s okay to admit you had imaginary friends as a kid! No judgment here. If some of your friends were imaginary or if you often saw angels as a kid, then there is a good chance you could be a medium. These spirits vibrate at a super high frequency, and if you could sense that energy as a young kid, then it’s likely you are a psychic medium!

3. You Always Felt Different

Did you ever feel like you couldn’t fit in no matter how hard you tried? Do you still feel that way?

You’ve tried figuring out for a long time what it is that makes you so different from everybody else. Not necessarily that you’re better than everyone, just that you can’t seem to connect with them on the same level. Maybe you long for deeper connections, or find yourself always in deep thought, or thinking too hard. This makes it hard for others to relate to you, but psychic gifts often set mediums apart from average people.

4. You Often See Things in Your Peripheral Vision

Do you often see things in your peripheral vision? Such as orbs, flashes of lights, shadows, or even sparkles? These are signs that you are clairvoyant. These things you see are spirits. If you have fully fine tuned your gifts, then you would be able to see the spirit with your inner eye.

5. You Pick Up on the Energy of Places

Have you ever just walked into a building and just felt a bad energy coming from it? Your experience can either be getting the shivers, feeling heat or cold, or maybe even a type of heaviness. Sometimes the feeling is just a scary, negative energy.

If you are a person who often goes off energies or vibes of rooms or even people, you may have psychic medium abilities.

6. You Are Afraid of the Dark

Do you ever feel weirdly scared of the dark? It’s not just the fear of a boogie monster under your bed. Rather, it’s more like you can just sense things when the lights go out. It’s okay to admit it. Some people go to sleep with the TV on, or a light.

If you are hypersensitive when the lights go out, then that means your medium senses are buzzing. Sometimes turning the TV on can give your mind something to focus on.

7. You Hear Voices

These voices aren’t necessarily someone whispering in your ear your own name or something spooky. It usually means you hear low mumbling, music, voices, or sounds that no one else hears. Basically, these noises in your head could be spirits trying to reach out to you.

8. You’re Easily Overstimulated

Do you ever feel easily overwhelmed in highly crowded or loud areas with so much going on all at once? Not just overwhelmed, but kind of like you’re going to crawl out of your skin type of bothered. This means you might be clairsentient to energy. Maybe calm or quiet places feel much better for you, and overstimulation makes you stressed out.

9. You Have Vivid Dreams

Do you have dreams that almost seem too real? These dreams may seem like past lives, or they sometimes are about people you have never even met.

10. You Understand Animals

Do you ever feel like you just “get” an animal when you’re together? Almost like you can “feel” the animal, and they seem to always be calm near you. An example might be that your friend’s cat won’t stop rubbing up against you. This could be a sign that the animal recognizes your psychic abilities.

11. You Know Things About People

Do you ever get vibes from someone before you even get to know them? This is not the same as judging someone for their appearance. It is truly feeling a positive or negative vibe from just looking at them or being near them. This is another sign of your intuitive psychic abilities.

12. You Give Amazing Advice

Do people always come to you for your wise words of advice? You might have this amazing ability to soothe individuals with your words. Psychic mediums are gifted in offering wisdom and guidance to the people around them.

13. You Often Can Read Someone’s Mind

Whenever you’re having a conversation with someone, do you tend to think certain thoughts to yourself, only to have the person you’re talking to, say them out loud? You may even finish other people’s sentences, and they say, “Hey, I was just thinking that!” If so, then you are experiencing telepathy. Telepathy is where messages are transferred through energy. This is one of the biggest forms of psychic communication, so if you’re experiencing this, then you’re probably psychic.

14. You Regularly Experience Visions

A vision is when you see an image of something before it happens. You may see images from the past, present or future. Visions come to us in many forms. You might experience psychic visions while dreaming, or you may see visions while you’re in a meditative state. Some people see visions projected in front them, as though they are watching a movie. If you experience any of these things, then you could be psychic.

15.  You Can See Auras

An aura is a colorful, energetic field that displays around someone. All of us have auras. The color of someone’s aura will tell you how they’re feeling emotionally, or what their character is like. If you can see bright layers of colors around people, this is a true gift, and a definite sign that you are psychic.

16.  You Can Feel The Emotions of Others

Most people can sort of sense how other people are feeling.  After all, we are all conduits of energy. However, you could be psychic empath if you find that you’re feeling these emotions times 10. If you can literally feel the pain of others, this is a big sign that you’re psychic.

17.  You Simply Just Know

Maybe you don’t have visions or hear spiritual guides, but you posses a very strong inner knowing.  This ability is also often referred to as intuition or claircognizance.  You are person who knows what’s going to happen before it happens. You also get a very strong vibe about people right off the bat, and may even know they’re whole entire life story, without having spoken to them prior. If so, you are psychic.


  1. Large clear eyes which seem to see right through you

  2. Immediately likable, they are beings of pure love and people are drawn to them

  3. Deeply affectionate, their hugs will feel sincere and meaningful

  4. Vibrational beings and may have a gift for music and singing

  5. Highly psychic with no need for honing psychic ability

  6. Telepathic communicators you will feel them before you hear them

  7. Peaceful and loving toward all

  8. Protective of planet

  9. Compassionate and forgiving

  10. Their radiant vibration transforms those around them

  11. Highly sensitive both emotionally and environmentally. The Crystal children may be affected by loud sounds, chaotic surroundings, smells & textures.

  12. Allergies and food intolerances – because of their more finely tuned frequency, they may have multiple food allergies and cannot endure chemicals and GMOs.

  13. Animal Lovers

  14. Vegetarians at an early age – they can feel the pain of others and don’t desire to contribute toward suffering

  15. Empathic – in feeling everything around them, may not know the distinction between their emotions and those they experience in others.

  16. Love crystals, rocks and gems – drawn to all things from the earth (even dirt!) they can elicit healing abilities through their connection with crystals.

  17. Direct connection to Spirit – feel close to angels, ancestors and many have past life memories in tact

  18. Artistic and creative – coupled with sensitive and loving nature, they see the world through rose colored glasses and invite us to move into more compassion

  19. Fearless – due to their intuitive connection to the planet, they tend to know their boundaries better than we as parents may be comfortable. They are avid climbers and explorers yet not always mindful of the limitations of their little physical bodies.

  20. Parents often are Indigos

  21. Internal governing force

I hope this post is inspiring and uplifting and interesting to you. This is healing for me to write it and put it out into the world. Its like the weight is lifting off my shoulders and it feels better. In true Jessica fashion, I’ve rebranded a bit so that my art image better reflects who I am today, and corresponds with the path that I am currently on.

The Crystalline Crest is a name that Spirit helped me arrive to. If you are familiar with auras, then this might be interesting to you. I believe that my aura is crystalline, not just one color, but all the colors. When I see and feel my aura, it is bright white, and crystalline, hints of cosmic, pastel rainbow glimmering through.

Crest comes from the meaning of “highest point.” I want everyone who chooses to work with me to vibrate higher in life, to live your best, highest version of yourself. I want to pass on my high vibration to you.

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The Crystalline Crest. What do you think?! Let me know!

Jessica Pence